Soup and Wings.

The truth I have been clinging to these days: God's love NEVER fails.

So much life has happened.

Usually, when blogs aren't posted its because there is just too much. too much of life too fast.

too much isn't bad.

too much sometimes isn't even fast.

its just a lot.

I have been learning a lot about WORDS lately. God had told me he

would teach me, he even prepared me for thinking about truth. I just had no idea

how it would all bubble up.

I had no idea that I had hidden the deceit that lived in me and blocked it off from God's transformation power.

I had tombed it off.

"the most revolutionary act is telling the truth."

PUT on the BELT of TRUTH, cause your pants are fallin' off.

God is a talker. That is good news for me. Exodus 19, God speaks! He communicates clearly. Another truth that I am learning to lean on and trust in. "Do you trust that your shepherd speeks to his sheep?"

QUESTIONS are so valuable.

Dr. Pettit tells me to write down the questions. He says, "You are writing down the questions, right?!"

>>>Big questions leave lots of room for God to move<<<

YOU ARE MAKING ME INTO SOUP! and it is super painful!

When a catapillar transforms and is inside the cocoon all of its organs are broken down and made into something that resembles soup. It is liquid, sloshing around in there waiting to be made into something! All of the old organs are broken down because they are not equipped to take on the new identity. Then these cells called Imaginary Cells begin to grow and build new organs. Scientists cannot figure out what gets these cells to begin, but they do, faithfully.

All of my old ograns have been made into slush.

I have sucessfully become soup.

"Now what?!?"

I am empty handed but alive in His hands.

Death bringing NEW life.

Depression bringing dependency

Makin' me into Soup.

WHAT CAN WASH AWAY MY SIN???

... NOTHING but the BLOOD of JESUS!

(Little giggling boys)

Im thankful that I was given two sisters to journey with and to be family with! Im thankful that God is teaching me to SAVOR time and moments with.

He is able. He is willing.

Doubt no more.

I am really thankful for laughter.

for this beautiful mountain top.

for the promise of sunshine.

for a cozy night in the city with Sarah:)

for glitter!

for colorful and vibrant parts of life (even when they come in forms of dresses)

for being able to hold my nephews

and for tears

Im thankful that goodbyes are hard cause it means that my life is RICH!!!

Im thankful for matching

and having a brother.

Im thankful that the WORD is so So SO ALIVE!

Im thankful for the promise of sunshine and Orlando.

for invitations

for Pat encouraging me to make space inside me soul

for courage to speak truth

for lies being broken off me

for living into the truth that hiddeness does NOT protect

thankful for soup being able to make wings and reproduction organs.

Im just thankful that God is working on me.

I for sure am in the WorkRoom.

Slow and tedious work.

Slow, tedious, and beautiful.

BYE YA'LL.

Run this Race.

Hebrew 12

¹ Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,

² fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

³ Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

Thankful for this princess who continually runs with me.

Rough Seas.

heav·y

 

1. of great weight; hard to lift or carry.

2. of great amount, quantity, or size; extremely large, massive.

HEAVY. That is a perfect word to descibe how I have felt for the past couple weeks. Heavy.

Jesus says, "Come to me, all you who are weary...I will give you rest... Learn from me... you will find rest for your souls...My yoke is easy and my burden is light."

I have CLUNG to the promises in this verse before. Clung to it as if my life depended on it. Probably because a lot of days I feel so heavy that my life does depend on someone taking the burdens for me.

But I have questions and thoughts, somehow this verse doesn't quite make since to me. How can any burden be light? and how and what is Jesus' yoke? Is his idea of " light and easy" different then mine?

Questions are valuable.

Write down the questions.

When I think 'light and easy' a picture of whip cream pops in my head. Pretty sure that isn't what Jesus was thinking when he said those words.

So I open up my hands.

Knowing that God is good and that he is my sustainer,

Knowing that God holds all things together,

Knowing that I don't know,

I open up my hands, ask the questions, and trust in his answers.

Satan fights a battle over trust.

And I'm feelin' it.

I will drink my tea and remind God of his promise.

I will lay all that stuff at the cross and trust that God's idea of "light and easy" is good. Good, good for me, and good for God's glory.

Open HANDS,

Open HEARTS,

and

LOTS of Hope.

I love sunshinecause it brings GROWTH.

These weeks this mountain top has been awfully foggy.

foggy and gross.

I struggle with the fog. I struggle with it because I love the sun. Sun brings warmth, comfort, and growth. Fog brings questions. I struggle living thankfully in the questions.

HARD thanks.

Enter into hard thanksgiving.

Hard thanksgiving on the rough seas.