Oh, Im funny.

But there is grace enough for that.
So Basically, On Septemeber 18th I started a new blog that was all about my ART. But as I have processed what that looks like, I decided I didnt want to split up different parts of my life onto different blogs. SO, here is all the stuff that was on that blog, and from now on my life will be on here:) 
Holistic in every way.
Because in real life, you cant really catagorize your life! 


It is September 18th, and I am starting again.
For years I have wrestled with this seed of creativity that has been planted in me. The wrestleing process kinda looks like this:

>I want to create with all my being.

> I get shut down- this could happen because of my own fears,

 other people's words, or even just the busyness of life.

>I stop creating.

>I keep thinking about it.

>I get on pinterest and people's blog and look at art work.

> Eventually, something triggers in me and I pick up my paintbrushes again. 

So I BEGIN once again, full of grace for myself, because I know that I am not the final judge. 

Im stepping into this scary creative call

and giving these silent thoughts a place to be heard.

I am offering up my life in a way that I never thought I would have the courage to do. 

I AM NOT COURAGEOUS ON MY OWN.

But you see.... 

I AM NOT ON MY OWN! 

I AM A FULL TIME STUDENT

and

I desperately want to be a full time artist. 

How do I do both? 

Right now I am taking Kelly Rae's online class, Taking Flight. It has been so good for my heart. I find myself writing a research paper for a class and then getting on the classes page and just reading and looking at people's work. 

Distractions and Procrastinations are life giving.

It is good to see my heart long for something. 

It is good to notice life and yearning within me. 

This little butterfly is going to have to be still.

Be still and wait for the SUN to warm my wings.

Warm my wings and prepare me to fly.

This I know for sure,

The butterfly can't warm up its own wings.

Independence would kill the butterfly.

So I am pregnant with questions. tons and tons of questions. 

Most of those questions pin point fears that I live in. 

"You gain strength, courage, and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You must do the thing which you think you cannot do."

-Eleanor Roosevelt

I have a 'to do' list that is a mile long. Everything on that list is about school. I have wish list that is a mile long. My wish list is full of paintings and big plans! 

I know that my thistle years are super important. I know that no matter what I am doing in life there is an invitation to ENGAGE and be present. I beleive that nothing is wasted, not pain, or joy, or even desire. Everything is used.

One little thing that I have decided to do while being a full time student is to find time every day to sketch. It will not be a huge commitment, not a finished piece of art everyday, but just a little piece to keep my creative juices flowing.
It will keep me creating and it also will give me space to tell my stories through snap shots of my day!

And I love stories. 

So here we go, Ill be posting some as they come... 

and really I just invite you to join me. 

Tell parts of your story through sketches too! 

Day #1: Soggy Cinnamon Toast Crunch

  Day #2: These shoes go places. 

Day #3: To Thy cross I cling, or I die.

 Day#5: Lunch at MoJo's. alone and peaceful.

and a little love note to Farda:)