Dreamin' and Making Lists.

"Dont be afraid of Death, Winnie. Be afraid of the unlived life."

-Tuck Everlasting.

It is a new year.

And to be honest I dont feel motivated to move and change.

So here is my prayer: that God would change this comfortable heart of mine and give me purpose, passion, diligence, and fight!

I always have short term goals running.

But year long goals have never been for me.

But these are things I need more of in my life, and I hope I can look back on 2012 as the year that I grew and my spirit went through transformation.

I want to be in the WORD. more and more.

I want memorization to take place.

i want to be diligent in my Greek class.

I want to wake up earlier and live by the sun,

after all I am a sunshine girl.

I want to write more letters,

and tell people i love them.

I want to laugh loudly, because whats the point in holding joy in.

I want to shut up more and listen lots.

I want to see past the physical and listen to the heart.

I want to learn a new culture

I want to love because I have been loved.

I want to record the smallest, most beautiful, details.

I WANT TO LIVE IN THANKSGIVING!

I want to wear more dresses

and live in the beauty of God.

I want to wear glittery things and not be embarassed

I want to break free from comparison,

jealousy,

self-centeredness,

fear.

I want to fly like a bird who just realized that it isn't caged in by bars.

I want to call my sisters more.

and thank God for my family more.

I want my smile to be contagious

I want to write a story

and dance in the rain:)

and thank God for the snow, even when I would rather the sunshine.

I would like to live more by intention and less from habit.

I want to live in the resurrection power that invades my life.

I want to be aware when I am bored,

and fight like hell to get my heart out of that dangerous spot.

I want to be awake to the divine

I want to see sacred things in the mundane.

I WANT YOUR WORD TO BE BORN IN ME!!!

I want creativity to overflow

and I want to become a woman of truth

I want to see my body as a temple of the Holy Spirit

and I don't want to be dry bones.

I WANT TO DANCE!

I dont know how all these things will take place,

but I believe that these are glimpses of fully living.

and I believe that I am promised life to the fullest.

And i believe I will get that even if it come in completely different ways then I think.

I believe LIFE is coming.

I believe I am pregnant with LIFE.

I know I am!!!

So I will dance:)

‎"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover."

Mark Twain